Nah, it’s fine. Just forget about it. I give up. I won’t play, okay? I really just give up. Okay now, whatever.
Suicidal. Today is a suicidal day. If I wasn’t so afraid of pain and blood, I’d be dead…long gone. I need to learn to get over such a fear. Such idiotic fears. I don’t like living such a disgraceful, lonely fake useless life.
Leave.
Just leave me. Discard me, replace me. Go on, be like the rest. Just forget me. Just….be like everyone else in my life…Just go.
Unwanted
I don’t like this feeling. This feeling where I’m all alone. This feeling where I just want to cry. This feeling where no one understands me. This feeling of being unwanted. I don’t like it. I really hate it. I hate when I realize I’m actually alone. I hate it that I can easily be replaced. I…am not needed nor wanted. Isn’t that dandy? I’m…just….alone…
When Edward said he wanted and even planned to get Jeremy and me back together, I laughed.
